The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Watched its dvd today. The story line is good, meaningful. It is the kind of, like "Big Fish" which i watched it in the cinema few years back. It was as touching as Forrest Gump.

Different people may interpret the message differently. The messages i got however, nobody could reverse the time, tomorrow is always unpredictable, and aging is a natural and BEAUTIFUL process that happens to all of us. It taught about birth and death. Indeed, it reminds me a friend of mine, who passed away at his aged 17. He was such a good boy, good future ahead... 6 Persons involved in car accident, crashed into the river; during chinese new year, chinese calendar: day of 14th. Three persons not survived that night.

Somehow, i realized that our live is too fragile, and it took me quite a long time to accept the truth. A friend asked me, do you ever think that your parents may leave you one day?

"Yes, i do." "But, i can't accept it, i wish to die first before them." *I afraid to lose them*

And he said that i was selfish. "You want to die first, scared of pain, heartache; but what happen to your parents..?" "They will be more suffering than you.."

I admit that I was playing around, taking so much of time looking for what i want in future; but i am seriously miss them a lot, even though i am not staying with them since i aged 18. Stayed alone all these years, and they still worry on me until today, i thought that i already proved that i am independent and capable to take care myself very well. I appreciate it deeply.

I'm at home now. Too bad they are not around.

Waiting them for supper then..... ciao. love. amanda

Pleasure moment

What is love.

In love with someone.

Scared. Doubted. Worried.

Think openly.

General thoughts. Common senses. Good memories.

Made up the mind.

Persistent.

Figured out the solutions. Good Luck!

It was RIGHT!

What we truly want, somehow; we may never get it in the end. It hurts indeed. I afraid i couldn't take it easily when it comes to the end.

I've made up my mind, i made my choice. I believe it was RIGHT decision; i don't know whether i can get over it or not, no so called 'hope so' or 'try my best' but i believe i could do so.

Heartache. Headache. Broke apart.

HAPPY due to a GoOd SleEp

A RAINY day does cheer my days up. I like raining, very much.

I'd a short nap, woke up at 6.45pm. Rains stop, but it is windy, I am pleased this evening.

I planned my day, how I am going to fully utilize the hours that left before the next day.

First of all, I gonna get myself a cafe latte, and a dinner. I am hungry now, but the traffic is congested out there so I'll probably be out by 8 o'clock.

Feel focused, I preferred to spend this day on assignments since I've the right mood.

I am thankful to my dear fellows, who always encourage me or so called *forcing* me :D; in order to get me works on the assignments. I slept too much, indeed.

It's singing out there, right now; [if only you knew the location that where i am staying], so I gonna turn on my iTunes to listen some GOOD musics.

Oh yeah, think of eating Starbucks' tuna finger sandwich. ciao. love. amanda.

Visited Myoga, The Garden

Yesterday, I visited Myoga for my first time by using the free coupon as a member of The Gardens Club. It was a good experience as i am looking a suitable centre to learn yoga, my good friend; June supposed to learn yoga with me, couldn't make it since she is getting too busy on her job. Myoga offers both yoga and energy classes, there are more than 50 types of classes; i was almost decided to take a yoga course over there but i paused my action as I remembered i have not finished my makeup course, my schedule is tight besides attending the daytime ID classes. My to-do list is pending every week, well, think of my current assignments; gosh, make me crazy indeed.

What should i start today... hmmm.... oh yeah, i'd the idea for PSD's assignment. ciao.

*What's going on+FUNNY*

[Taken by Cindy, In Class]

SO MUCH of ....

So much of changes, so much of hopes, so much of desires, and so much of love...

Felt like lack of something at this moment. I thought i was too busy with the reassessment last month, until today; the worst thing is I am also apart from my current classes. I neglected all the lectures, exercises and assignments. I couldn't concentrate on those exercises, just ignored everything and spent my days on nothing, am i lazy?!! YES! Disturbed by something, i guess. I hate to be weak, but my actions lately are disappointing indeed. I am absolutely weak mentally. Oh god. Must start doing all the assignments before it's too late like last semester. I hate people saying that I am lucky, no commitments, never do jobs and still studying at this age, traveling everywhere... To be frankly, I never feel great, or happy by doing these as i feel lost most of the time; i admire people who has a purpose, dream, etc; which kept them going through the tough time in order to achieve their goals.

Perhaps.. I am giving myself these excuses so that I would not feel guilty. Or the truth is, I never put all my efforts while doing a thing, never try hard at all. I have been wasting SO MUCH of TIME on playing around, so much of money on traveling ....

Weeks past, supposed to see changes in me, however, i failed to do so. *sigh... too bad*

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