So much of changes, so much of hopes, so much of desires, and so much of love...
Felt like lack of something at this moment. I thought i was too busy with the reassessment last month, until today; the worst thing is I am also apart from my current classes. I neglected all the lectures, exercises and assignments. I couldn't concentrate on those exercises, just ignored everything and spent my days on nothing, am i lazy?!! YES! Disturbed by something, i guess. I hate to be weak, but my actions lately are disappointing indeed. I am absolutely weak mentally. Oh god. Must start doing all the assignments before it's too late like last semester. I hate people saying that I am lucky, no commitments, never do jobs and still studying at this age, traveling everywhere... To be frankly, I never feel great, or happy by doing these as i feel lost most of the time; i admire people who has a purpose, dream, etc; which kept them going through the tough time in order to achieve their goals.
Perhaps.. I am giving myself these excuses so that I would not feel guilty. Or the truth is, I never put all my efforts while doing a thing, never try hard at all. I have been wasting SO MUCH of TIME on playing around, so much of money on traveling ....
Weeks past, supposed to see changes in me, however, i failed to do so. *sigh... too bad*
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hey daniel! I changed my hairstyle recently. I was moody last whole week but... no worries, i am happy now n start doing my assignments. a good start indeed.
still, always enjoy my days although those assignments is due soon. ha ha! see ya!
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